Sunday, March 18, 2012

Harsh ''Mid-month''' of March

An urge of writing what's in my heart, yearning to voice out. O Muse, perhaps you are the goddess of Literature but I wonder whether you would work on blog as well? :P

Counting down on days till the MAJOR examination of UOL , intermediate standard...52 days left wei...not much time anymore and I still think I'm not ready. And to make things worse, I'm sick, having fever right now. Just to let you guys know for those who read of course(most probably myself anyway :P) I was ok until thursday. Wednesday night went out with bunch of friends to celebrate my buddy's birthday , It was fun hanging out with them again, they really make me feel comfortable whenever I hangout with them. You might not believe this but we went back to MCKL, our previous college to blow out the candles and made wishes. Of course we didn't leave out snapping photos,if we did that would be silly ,right? About the photographs some were captured in one kind of another, we even laughed at ourselves when we looked back. One of the background was a building right opposite of the college with the heading ''Persatuan Bagi Orang Buta Malaysia(MAB) '' and we are in the photo with the heading somehow show that we are the blind ones, nope swear to God, we have NO intention for mocking the blind.

Coming back on thursday shall we? I was having a headache and feel feverish once I woke up, had my breakfast and took my medicine then it kinda went off but came back just before dinner. I still take my meds after dinner and went to bed. But sadly :( Same thing happened the next morning and imagine going to college with such a heavy headache and the bones aching too!! Pills are taken in , sleep as much as I can after class but still the same. The fever just won't go off!! It's kinda repetitive. Meds in, feel ok for few hours then it came back again. It was until today that I decided to leave the class at 11am this morning and called my mom to bring me to a doctor. I guess my immune system is just not strong enough these days especially with the hot weather outside. And ONE more thing, I noticed the Hall on the first floor in the college is not so hygiene after all!!! There are so many students who are ill and coughing in class!!! SO MANY!!! Imagine how that would help me recover?!!

Anyway, I was given antibiotics and I really hope I would really recover from this fever and get back to work. There are so many things to be done and I have not even started on the VLE essay that need to be submitted by latest first week of May. Examination starts on 10TH May, wish me luck. Nah, wish God guides. I only trust luck for 10% only, effort is another 60% and hopefully with God's consent and blessings hope to get another 30% to make it 100%.

But right now the first thing I really want is to recover from this FEVER!!

A view on the Our Daily Bread.
True success is staying on God's path by following His Word and giving Him praise instead of craving it for ourselves.

Help me, O Lord, lest my heard become proud,
For all of my talents by You are endowed;
Nothing I have can I claim as my own,
What mercy and grace in my life You have shown!-D.De Haan.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

2012 Temptations rule over me ; Rich and Poor

Nobody going to read this anyway, I just wanna use this as a place to say what I want, to shout out what's in my heart. :)

55 days until the UOL exam, less than 2 months. It's going to be very fast, just a blink of eyes and that day will come. Then you ask me, are you ready? To be frank, I'm not,seriously. There are so much more to study. I just don't understand myself though. I'm a person who really suck in controlling myself, always succumb to temptations! I was even more hardworking for the past few months but right now for the exam coming towards me, I feel rather lazy. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!!! Am i not suppose to work even harder?!! I feel like a failure again. I don't like to be forced, I don't like to memorize things, I like to learn in my own ways. I love to read about interesting facts like history, general knowledge and some science. I do love to learn new interesting stuffs.

But for the fact that we are all in this world , when capitalism is the basic idea, you can't possibly be good or professional if you don't focus on ONE field. When I say can't possibly be good it means less money earned, that's for sure. In order to make big money, buy nice clothing , big houses , expensive cars , we all know we must be professional in ONE field. You can't possibly survive if you just know a little bit,parts by parts from everywhere....

Money is indeed important. No one will deny that. But...Is money the only thing that will make people happy? I believe the world is being blind folded , unable to see even when we are born with eyes. Sometimes blind men see clearer that us! Like what in the bible says , With eyes cannot see and with ears cannot hear!! I can feel it in this over realistic world. People wouldn't take a glance at you if you are poor but they will bow down to the rich ones. Is this how the world should work? Is this really the world we living in? Is this world really only revolve around the rich ones?

Let me remind you if you don't mind, if there's no poor ones, the rich wouldn't be called rich!! The rich needs the poor and that is the truth! So please If I may say this to those rich people out there, DO NOT LOOK DOWN ON THE POOR WHEN YOU ARE DEPENDENT ON THEM!!

I saw many of those scenes where the Rich bullying , mocking, scolding and killing the poor ones. All I can say is, REPENT!! Woe to you if still proceed with those evil acts!!